The World Spins Madly On

This is the start of my adult life... I think. People, why do I not hang out with you more often!? Just in general. I want more friends. I was used to having so many people talk to me and hang out with me. I miss randomly singing to those people and them being annoyed. :P Now that I started at Convergys I feel like I don't really have any time to myself and I don't have anytime for people that I love. It sucks and I feel like my soul is being sucked. I am not afraid of the future and I am good at making friends so I truely believe that will change once I actually make friends there. Heck, maybe I can sing songs at them too... I miss all my friends from Logan High and Sky View. All those people that would say hi to me in the hall, or help me disrupt the class, or even just look at me. I like to be the center of attention and right now I feel like no one is really paying attention to me. It is weird but I kinda teared up a little writing that last sentence... That just proves how vein I am. I just want to feel someone there. I used to sleep in the same room as David and for some reason I always felt safe when he was in the same room as me. He was like my little protector. He was also my reason to keep being happy. I wanted to always protect him and be there for him. Even though I can be an asshole to him sometimes I still love him more than most almost everyone else, except for Lexie. It really hurts my feelings when he yells at me so my usual response is to yell back at him. He doesn't like me very much and it makes me feel like a failure of a brother. Anyway, this is my sad blog post. Sorry for the put down. :P I hope you all have a good night and or day or morning.