I have thought about alot recently, its weird. My whole life I have had people to talk to about my feelings. Brian is bad at listening, even though he is always there for me it is difficult to have him as one of the only people I have really been spending time with. I should talk to him about stuff but it is weird. I feel like now I have thoughts but there is noone there to hear them, but I guess it is more important that I understand what I am thinking than anyone else so it doesn't really matter, it just leaves this empty place in my heart.
I also haven't sung for anyone in a really long time, yeah people hear me when I am out and about and at work. I am not singing for them though, I am singing so I don't lose my fucking mind. I want to sing for someone in a place that it is appropriate and that they actually appreciate it. I wanna feel appreciated because I am human and I am used to it. I miss Lexie.
