Peace and Mental Illness

The amount of suffering I have experienced throughout my life comes no where even close to the suffering that my father, my older brothers, and my mom has gone through just doing what they believed to be correct at the time. Today my father finally told me his plan for me and everyone else in his life at this time. Currently my dad allows my homeless brother to live in the garage, and because of that more homeless people have shown up and started living in the shed and other places on our property. His plan is to get restraining orders against me and my older homeless brother and my other brother that recently tried to kill him. When he informed me of his plan I was very calm and I asked him if he wanted help with the restraining orders. He told me he didn't want my help because he doesn't trust me to do what is right and I was totally fine with that. I called him a liar and told him that I don't have time for his emotional abuse any more. I am incredibly grateful he is getting a restraining order against me and my brothers because he has been a great source of pain for not only him self but our entire family. I will use the money from this paycheck to find a place to rent now and I believe it will only get better from here. Our family is finally starting to heal and I believe him pushing us away is the best way to accomplish this.

The Work and Mental Illness

The truth is almost always hidden behind thoughts that your brain has about the world you live in and yourself. Many of the times truth will only come to you if you question those thoughts. I have posted about The Work by Byron Katie before. It is a process of writing down your thoughts so that you can capture them and question them by asking yourself. What would I be without this thought? Then you find the turnaround of the thought, there are many for every thought. For instance, a thought I have had about my self for as long as I can remember is my friends and family don't enjoy my company. I think that a turnaround for this is my friends and family enjoy my company. I think a more truthful turnaround could be that I enjoy my friends and family's company because I cannot control if they are enjoying my company or not. Then when you have found the turn around. Meditate in the turn around for as long as you are suffering. You will be suffering when meditating on the turnaround because when love replaces fear its scary and it hurts. You want to meditate in that suffering for as long as it takes to get the suffering to go away. I have tried this technique on many thoughts and you will always receive the answer of what is truthful. It just takes the time and work. :D

Love yourself, Accept yourself!

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Energy and Mental Illness

Living your life from one hit of anything to the next robs you of your mental health and your ability to get better from it. Unless you are getting high off your energy that comes from within.

You can meditate or pray anytime about anything. If you feel the urge to go get that slice of pizza or hit your meth pipe. Just pray or meditate. It may not seem like its instantly working but it will very soon. Patience Focus Humility. Aware Listen Comprehend.

These things that you use to avoid your emotions will only bring you down. Although they do have their purpose its not the ultimate thing. I don't know what the ultimate thing is and I don't know if any human being on this planet does. The energy that you are given connects you to the word and if anything knows the ultimate thing it will be the word.