I found out a very traumatic event happened not only when I was born but when I was 3 years old as well.
These traumas have shaped my relationships and made it hard for me to keep friends and lovers.
Limerence is a state of mind which results from romantic or non-romantic feelings for another person and typically includes obsessive thoughts and fantasies and a desire to form or maintain a relationship with the object of love and have one's feelings reciprocated.
Its like I keep having thoughts and memories of what I said and what I could have done better over and over in my head and it haunts me because it stirs up alot of emotions about what I could have done better when in reality I was doing the best I could at the time. I feel like it is stopping me from learning from my mistakes and even making future mistakes leading to successes.
