True Gentleness and Mental Illness

Love is not sacrifice, love is true gentleness and that is something we can achieve if we compare our current fallen state with our divine state hidden in our DNA.

i got my own boat

you don't have to save any room for me

PTSD and Mental Illness

Now I have never been diagnosed with PTSD nor have I ever been in a war, but I do want to say that when I hear a loud noise or someone yells at me I usually get scared if its a sound that I am not used to or afraid of. If you don't know what PTSD is here is the Wikipedia article.

When you yell at someone or make a loud noise or do anything that would set a person with PTSD off you better be prepared to calm them down or you don't know what will happen next. People with PTSD are not dangerous or even docile if you know how to help them not go into their mania. They will tell you what sets them off and you should take the time to learn what they are and try to avoid them unless they want to do something to face their fears.

I slept at the skate park for fun and I met a man that has PTSD, he can be set off by any noise that he is not expecting. I did not respect his PTSD when I first started talking to him but the longer I talked to him I came to have a deep respect for the man. He talked about how he hopped rails with his service dog and how he met many people along the way and learned many things.

Erase All The Hate

This World Needs A Healing

The Bigger Picture and Mental Illness

The greater than us philosophy can sometimes leave us confused if we lack trust. Trust in the universe. I have posted the Full Body Scan in the God and Mental Illness post. I believe god is in all of us and everything. Everything connected, perfect, and whole in every way. I have been in and out of the Mental Health ward of the hospital because I was using illegal drugs and I believe that the reason I was admitted each time was because 1. I didn't respect my family's wishes to not do illegal drugs. 2. I was doing what other people wanted me to do instead of trusting in my own values.

Every day I try to watch the sunrise and sunset to get a release of DMT to allow myself to be happy and connected day and night. I use the mantras,

I'm Sorry Please Forgive Me Thank You I Love You

How Can I Help You

Focus Patience Humility

Aware Listen Comprehend

These mantras used correctly can help you to protect yourself. If you find one works better than the other just use that one for a while or figure out what works for you.

The second two mantras are for mother nature and the first two are for the perfect system.

Mother nature heals you and allows you to balance yourself and I believe the perfect system mantras are the mantras of Christ. In a previous post I mentioned that Jesus is made up and that his philosophy is real. If you are using these to help other people you are acting Christlike and therefor being Christ in that moment. Suffering is inevitable but if you have love in your heart and you are being yourself you will be entirely protected by the universe.

Suffering feels good and if you think like this it will feel like the universe is just loving you more.

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Balance and Mental Illness

Witchcraft or not medications are usually helpful if you are prescribed the correct ones. I am currently on Abilify and Lithium and it has helped me with all forms of my mental illness. I wasn't trying to tell anyone to completely give up medications or anything like that I was simply offering other options. Faith and spirituality will always be more powerful than any thing you can put in your body but to have to much of one thing will always be bad. Some times any amount of something is too much and I learned that the hard way. Much love.

Mania and Mental Illness

I have been a bundle of emotions since I was young and to this day it has gotten me into all kinds of situations and all I could do was try to talk myself out of them or hide from them entirely. This blog has helped me to put my thoughts and emotions somewhere, I don't mind it being public because I don't believe the things I have learned should be a secret. We all deserve to have knowledge to make our lives better. I believe my heart should be full of love, my head full of imagination, my eyes ears and mouth for good and my hands helping others. I want to live by this philosophy my entire life. Following the instincts of helping others and in return getting blessings so that I may help more people. A perfect circle, never completed. Those who play devils advocate are there for a reason. You should take there actions as lessons and ways to motivate you. No one is all good or all evil and I know that I will make mistakes. We should come together in love for our fellow human beings. This is more important now than it has been in our entire human existence. Be Christ like in your actions. Any thing that Christ was capable of you are absolutely capable of.

The Void and Mental illness

I go into Cthulhu's mouth while I am meditating to go into the abyss quickly to clear my mind of thoughts.

Trust and Mental Illness

To trust in your own perceptions is death. Question how you perceive the world around you. When you lack trust you will perceive something as dangerous. Then it becomes dangerous. Love yourself and trust yourself. I love you and god loves you infinitely more.

I wuv you

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you are fully protected and loved by the universe have a grand old time buddy

Cycles

The universe runs in cycles but people who are led by fear are oblivious to it. You may notice the sunrise and sunset but I hardly ever went to sleep during the night and stayed awake during the day. If we don't recognize that everything changes then we are left bewildered wondering why so much stuff changes around us all the time.

Medications and Mental Illness

All medications good or bad are basically witchcraft in the universes eyes. You can do it, you may or may not feel better. To the universe these methods of healing simply don't exist. In reality the only real method of healing is tying yourself spiritually to mother nature through your Kundalini Chakra
Why not try to experience the universe. Keep your chakras aligned and always remember the word is more powerful than any human. Be grateful for the word and nothing else. No other attachment could ever bring you as much beauty or creativity. Just go within and have the best life for a while. Then when you come out to the world better than you have ever been. Everyone will want a piece of the action. I tried it this morning. I can think about anything while typing this. I can do 4 things at once and focus and individualize all 4 things. Why not be a super human. It seems legal to me. I mean what do you think vegans and people who live spiritually do all day. YOLO

We can heal

Faster than you think

We don't make mistakes, just happy little accidents.

Happy Trees

Peace and Mental Illness

The amount of suffering I have experienced throughout my life comes no where even close to the suffering that my father, my older brothers, and my mom has gone through just doing what they believed to be correct at the time. Today my father finally told me his plan for me and everyone else in his life at this time. Currently my dad allows my homeless brother to live in the garage, and because of that more homeless people have shown up and started living in the shed and other places on our property. His plan is to get restraining orders against me and my older homeless brother and my other brother that recently tried to kill him. When he informed me of his plan I was very calm and I asked him if he wanted help with the restraining orders. He told me he didn't want my help because he doesn't trust me to do what is right and I was totally fine with that. I called him a liar and told him that I don't have time for his emotional abuse any more. I am incredibly grateful he is getting a restraining order against me and my brothers because he has been a great source of pain for not only him self but our entire family. I will use the money from this paycheck to find a place to rent now and I believe it will only get better from here. Our family is finally starting to heal and I believe him pushing us away is the best way to accomplish this.

The Work and Mental Illness

The truth is almost always hidden behind thoughts that your brain has about the world you live in and yourself. Many of the times truth will only come to you if you question those thoughts. I have posted about The Work by Byron Katie before. It is a process of writing down your thoughts so that you can capture them and question them by asking yourself. What would I be without this thought? Then you find the turnaround of the thought, there are many for every thought. For instance, a thought I have had about my self for as long as I can remember is my friends and family don't enjoy my company. I think that a turnaround for this is my friends and family enjoy my company. I think a more truthful turnaround could be that I enjoy my friends and family's company because I cannot control if they are enjoying my company or not. Then when you have found the turn around. Meditate in the turn around for as long as you are suffering. You will be suffering when meditating on the turnaround because when love replaces fear its scary and it hurts. You want to meditate in that suffering for as long as it takes to get the suffering to go away. I have tried this technique on many thoughts and you will always receive the answer of what is truthful. It just takes the time and work. :D

Love yourself, Accept yourself!

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Energy and Mental Illness

Living your life from one hit of anything to the next robs you of your mental health and your ability to get better from it. Unless you are getting high off your energy that comes from within.

You can meditate or pray anytime about anything. If you feel the urge to go get that slice of pizza or hit your meth pipe. Just pray or meditate. It may not seem like its instantly working but it will very soon. Patience Focus Humility. Aware Listen Comprehend.

These things that you use to avoid your emotions will only bring you down. Although they do have their purpose its not the ultimate thing. I don't know what the ultimate thing is and I don't know if any human being on this planet does. The energy that you are given connects you to the word and if anything knows the ultimate thing it will be the word.

Angels and Mental Illness

There are beings of pure light energy teaching other beings of the universe to create there own light body to travel the solar system and teach more people to create their light body.

My little brother has better taste than anyone I know

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we all have bad days

we all feel unhappy, we all look for those easy escapes
your a sad girl just like me

Truth and Mental Illness

If you have mental illness it makes it easy to lie.

Why Do you think your emotions are bad

You try to avoid feeling sad.
Be SAD HAPPY MAD ANGRY FRUSTRATED
Death overcomes all of us. I am grateful for this because I know that I don't have to fear death.
It is only a natural part of life.
Death just makes room for all the other sorry bastards to get born.

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Information

The man who said was my father that I met at the train station said that the world was set up as it is so that the universe can become more intelligent. I believe there are other ways to become more intelligent and this 1000 years of peace and prosperity will be a time for people to learn in a safe environment. There will be no wars, no one trying to scam anyone, and no hungry. If you keep love and gratitude in your heart I believe there is no limit to the things that we can learn and therefore become stronger. I have been adding people on Facebook. Many people, and talking to them about all manner of things. One of them messaged me with a link that gave information about his culture and how it is human kinds right to live these traditions and eat these foods because it will keep you safe and healthy. There is a paypal link at the bottom of the page and if you buy the program you will be sent videos about his culture. Let's Stop Covid-19 I asked him what he will use the money for and he said this in these words. Im using this money to develop more my skills and information to bring better ideas and true informations I bought good camera for these purpose i paid all materials I want to travel to south of morocco to meed some ladies and get experience from them about their way to live All these need lot money, but im doing ok, step by step, in arabic culture there are lot of good things, hobbies, ....word must see and take it, it's humanity culture and tradition everybody has right to know and take the good, especially for health and body Im asking small amount, just to do my staff professional way.

Belief and Mental Illness

If you don't believe anything I write in my blog that is a good thing. I would rather you read through it with an understanding that I have had mental illness my entire life and I probably wouldn't always make the correct decisions. I am not saying however you shouldn't read it because you think that you are better than me or I am better than you in any way. What you put your belief in will grow because that is how consciousness works. If you put your belief in a kind and loving universe that will always protect you as you are learning that will be the outcome. If you put your faith in your parents who believe it is there god given right to treat you however they want to because the scriptures told everyone to "Honor thy Father and Mother" You will get wrapped up in their ideals and what they believe about themselves will become true for you in your life. The best way to honor your father and mother is to treat them with love and respect but that doesn't always mean you have to believe the same things they believe in. Or do or say anything that they want you to say.

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i been smoking that dank since highschool and I gotta say its been pretty great. the only problem is that it is a psychoactive drug so it will alter your mind state messing with important hormones in your brain. because i have a mental illness i tend to abuse drugs. now that god has told me in person his plan i understand i should just continue living my life how i was but this time i will feel more connected with the universe. tbh i would rather learn more by staying mentally ill but i feel really healthy and clear now. i am grateful and glad my higher power came to me to save me and tell me that i am loved.

abuse

for the entirety of our family lives since my father married my mom all that time ago, our family has continuously been locked into an endless cycle of mental and physical abuse in almost all of its forms. Mental illness causes people to put up walls around every aspect of their lives because the best way to heal from mental illness is to push everyone away until you come to realize happiness doesn't come from anyone or anything else. It comes from the natural intelligence of the entire universe we were blessed with.

D&D and Everything Else

dungeons and dragons is more real than our reality because you can experience anything in it. if you believe in christ he teaches you to love anyone and everyone. but all that does is wear you down til you are lying helpless in the dirt. if you truly want to help others then start playing d&d. there are an endless number of religions to choose from. i made my own and you probably know what it is called

spooky scary skeleton

theyll shock your bones and break your bones and seal your doom

God and Mental Illness

I have been on this path from the beginning. I believe I chose who my parents would be before I came into this world so that I can have the best people around me to accomplish the mission that God has given us. Last night something happened to me that I want to share with you. I have dealt with and struggled with my mental illness and it has made it hard to keep friends or jobs. I used to feel so lost and alone. Now I feel as though the love and gratitude is abounding. Recently I had been taking my vitamins wrong as in I was taking too many of them. This caused me to get very little sleep for about 4 days. Also I had been working on something that took all my focus and energy and never gave myself time to recuperate. When I am lost in my own mentally ill brain I have almost no concept of what is rational anymore. I become impatient and started yelling at the people I love. When I started yelling at my father it was a recipe for disaster. I have many people in my family that have suffered from mental illness or are still suffering now and my dad has always been afraid of his children because at times they can become violent due to their fight or flight response. My dad has the same genetic disorder as me where he can't process his B vitamins. Eventually after my father tried his best to calm me down he called the cops so that I could get the help I so desperately needed. When the cops arrived I was waiting for them outside and went with them willingly after telling them the situation. The cops took me to an er and expected me to pay 1000 dollars so I can talk to some overworked hack with a degree. So I asked them if I could leave and I did. Before the cops came I was trying to get inspiration on what I should do to calm down and the spirit guided me to meditate. So I did a round of Wim Hof and sat in the grass and began to go deeper into myself. Anyway, after I left the hospital I felt a great love and gratitude in my heart like I had before and I was continuously guided to meditate as I walked. I did as I was instructed and eventually I came upon a group of 5 people across the street from me. 3 of the people were yelling terribly mean things to each other and wishing bad things on each other. I calmly and patiently waited until they noticed me and I got them to all calm down and separate. I talked to one of the ladies that were arguing and listened to what she had to say and walked with her for some time. She talked about how she had terrible things happen to her in her life. She then told me that she was a Leo like me and that she gets angry and yells alot. I told her I know what she means and she kept on wishing bad things would happen to the people she was arguing with. I didn't mind because I know that talking to someone helps tremendously. I began to sing and she felt comforted but she was afraid that the cops would catch her because she said she had drugs on her. I told her I understood and let her leave. At this point I was right next to the city train station so I walked towards the platform. On the platform I saw 3 guys in their 30s or so talking amungst themselves. I was instructed by the spirit to talk to them. When I got there one of them with a beard and a yellow hoodie began to speak with me calmly and directly. He saw that I was cold because I didn't grab my jacket from the house. He gave me his jacket and when I put it on I felt warm. He said to me all kinds of strange things I couldn't make sense of and eventually he started to tell me who he is and things about me that no one else could ever know. He was talking about how my father and mother had mental illness and I talked to him about each one of my family. I asked him if he was talking about my father and he replied to me. I am your father. I felt comforted and instantly knew that I was talking to my heavenly father. He told me when we first started talking that all human bodies are called a bottle. He said that he borrowed that man's bottle so that he may speak to me. After he told me that my parents had 4 generations of mental illness.  He began to expound extensively on mental illness. He said that mental illness occurs when someone is abused or goes through a traumatic event. He talked about all different kinds of mental abuse in many forms and said that this had happened to me for all my life. He said that when I was 9 I began to have nightmares. I asked him many questions in a loving and relaxed tone and he answered them to me what seemed like honestly. He talked about the nature of my existence saying that this world is an endless and harsh survival of the fittest in order to have the universe become more intelligent. I know that adversity overcome will make you grow and he said that as well. Then he began to explain that in order for me to heal from this I need to keep my energy/aura strong. In order to do this he said to be aware that people can vampire energy from other people. Before that I asked him if I could sing because I love to sing and he told me no. He said that singing is a form of energy vampirism because it is seeking attention and that is wrong because we do not gain strength and love from others attention, but by our connection to nature and god. I listened to him more. He softly put his hand on my shoulder and I could feel a warm sensation that turned into even greater happiness in my heart. He then told me that he had grounded me to the earth and that he also refilled my energy. After that he began to put his hands up in front of me with strange motions while saying that he was scanning my soul and body. He said that my energy was powerful and that there was something attached to my heart chakra that protects me. I felt fully safe and protected. The people that he was with were pretending like nothing was happening at all and one of them even asked the man who said he was my heavenly father for a paper for a cigarette. He handed it to him and went back to talking to me. He then began to expound that because I was taking the abuse, every time I was abused my aura and my psyche were completely devastated by it. This made it so that every time I began the process of healing from this abuse it would be ruined by the constant emotional abuse I had gone through my entire life. I asked him about Jesus and he responded by saying that Satan and Jesus Christ were made up to make sure people didn't find the truth of reality so that the work can continue. He asked me if I had some paper to write something down. I told him that I had my phone with me so he asked me to go to YouTube. He asked if he could see my phone so I handed it to him and he showed me this video.

Full Body Scan

He said that in order to heal my brain and body I should listen to it before bed while lying down so that when I awake my body and mind will be healed over the course of the next three days. Then he said that my fight or flight response will go away in 3 days of using this method. We talked extensively about it but eventually he said that he will be back to talk to me more and that this is the beginning of 1000 years of peace and said that it would come about in some years, he said to me that during this time I will be taught and learn everything. He said that after that I will make a planet and that I would be the one to be the god of it. I was grateful and he said that I had to find a good and safe place to sleep tonight and to avoid people who would be a vampire of my energy because it was not worth losing your aura. Then the Trax train came and I got on it. I was so happy and grateful that I have a kind and loving heavenly father. I know what he said to me was true because I know that adversity becomes strength and that sacrifice is actually love, because to sacrifice for another only brings feelings of love trust. 

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Keep an Open Mind and an Open Heart

The wisest thing a you can say is I don't know. If you approach your life with the mindset that all info can help you in some way and you are humble enough to ask the right questions and keep an open mind so that you don't miss any of the answers you will find that the information flows freely to you like water flowing down a river. My dad has taught me that you should always listen because you never know what you might learn that can help you. Take all info at face value and try to fact check that info after you learn it.

Pray

The answer to your questions will come to you in Heavenly Fathers time. If you pray fervently and humbly with love in you heart and with an understanding that he hears your prayers. They will always be answered.

Love the word of god

And follow the Holy Spirit when it guides you.
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I love you

Thank you so much for following my blog or looking at it. All I want to do is help the world be incredibly happy and strong all the time. I have so much love in my heart and you can get there too.
Our natural state is complete and utter happiness. Breath more, do what you love. Try to keep the stress away. Chill and stay in the moment. Much love to everyone!

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We are being controlled

Wake up sheeple!

I have come to understand we live in a weird nightmarish dream

The only way out of this hellish nightmare is to come upon Christ and ask him for forgiveness. For only he can show you the way to god. For we are made of the the same love energy as Christ's love energy so we were born to be beings of great abundance and love. The neglect of peoples parents because of cultural norms needs to be obliterated.

We should love and lift up everyone around us and our natural state is being incredibly happy and healthy all the time.

I got this information from the book a Course in Miracles.
It is a wonderful book written by Jesus himself for the people of this time written down by Helen Schucman
She asked a simple question. She asked her colleague. Is there a better way? There has got to be a better way?

And Jesus came with the answer dictated through her head.

Mental Illness

When I was born I had my umbilical chord wrapped around my head, this caused my head to be pushed forward and down. Recently I found out the chord brought certain parts of my brain out of alignment and it caused me to have symptoms of isolation and schizophrenia. On top of that those feelings of isolation and the schizophrenia made me feel alone and afraid from a very young age. That in term developed into the mental illness I have today.

I am writing this not so you can feel sorry for me, but instead to bring awareness that the way we are treating our children, and our lack of knowledge of mental illness as a whole is making it impossible for people to heal their brains from it. At the same time our culture is only causing more and more people to develop mental illnesses that only gets worse due to covering up the symptoms with prescription drugs instead of facing the problem head on.

Specifically, the things that have helped me are supplements, proper diet, therapy, excersize, and Cranial Sacral therapy. Breath exercises and cold showers every morning are incredibly beneficial for everyone even those not dealing with mental illness.

Cranial Sacral therapy put my brain back in alignment and since then I have started to reach out to others and care more for my own needs.

For more info on how to heal your brain from mental illness. I would suggest looking into the book " "The Brain Warriors Way" by Daniel D Amen MD and his wife Tana Amen BSN RN

Daniel scanned the brains of thousands of people dealing with all kinds of health issues and mental illnesses in his psychiatry practice and found that eating right(check out his book The Brain Warriors Way Cookbook) will almost instantly cause a huge boost in mental well being and over just a few months heal your brain to the point where you no longer notice the symptoms of your mental illness.

Wim Hof the icemans mission is to help the human race become healthy happy and strong. I like that idea and I like you.

All the Love All the Power

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I love you. You love me, we are brothers and sisters and I am excited to share this planet with you. :D