There is no ideal me in 10 years, or even 10 seconds. What ever happens to me happens, and I will try to accept it with open arms. I love life, and I love my life. The hardest part is dealing with all the disappointment and doubt that comes from the assumptions I have had my entire life. I assumed that I am the way I am and that the majority of my character, and my identity would stay the same. In fact the exact opposite occurred. The majority of my being, who I am on a fundamental level, changed drastically. It feels like this back and forth battle, at one point I am completely at peace and I feel as though I can finally love myself for who I am. Then something happens/ I learn something new, or I just completely change my mind about someone or something. At that point I feel as though I have to start from the beginning of my emotional health and take a second look at my life. I feel as though I have to second guess myself.
I am destined to get to a point where I can honestly say that, whatever happens I will still love myself. That is something I can look forward to and work towards.
